What You Want

You're softer than a cannon blast
But your effects much longer last
And I want you just like a hole in my head
But I need you like a meal and a bed
And you say, "Come on, I'm not what you're after."
But I know you're not just anyone, anyone

(chorus)
But I'm not what you want
No, I'm not anyone
But if you needed me
Then I could be someone

And you're an army in a horse
And you have taken me by force
And all the freedom in this world could not resist
The sweet temptation of your sweet elusiveness
So I say "Come on!" as the gate swings open
Cause I know you're not just anyone, anyone

(bridge)
And the lie's always cheaper than the truth
But the lie's all I've ever known of you
Maybe none of this is true

This is a song by Caedmon's Call called "What You Want." I was listening to this song this morning and it brought tears to my eyes. The line I love is "And you're an army in a horse and you've taken me by force." I thought of when I became a Christian. Jesus rescued me from a dark pit, one where I thought I had all the answers in the world, but came to find out that I didn't know a thing. I had nothing to call faithful. I had nothing to call true hope. And then Jesus stormed into my heart and took me by force. He told me that he was THE answer, that He was faithful, that He had an abundance of hope and love and grace to show me. And I let Him. Jesus doesn't NEED me by any means, but he wants me and that gives me a reason to be somebody....

I am so blessed. Everything in my life is gift of my gracious God. He's not just anyone....

In His Mercy.