Hungry

Have you ever felt so hungry for God that you almost don't know what to do?That's kind of where I am right now.As a new believer,I faced each day with such joy in my heart, feeling like I was going to burst.As time went on, those feelings subsided and I could no longer rely on my emotions to draw me closer to the Lord.Being the emotional person that I am, that has always been a challenge.I can't always feel God, and I don't think God wants me to be able to feel him all the time.It has to be a choice each day when I wake up to follow the Lord and breathe every breath for Him.Lately, everyday gives me yet another reason of why I can't rely on anything less than Jesus Christ himself.As I face challenges and struggles and "bear my cross," I can't help but turn to my faithful God, my rock.It's amazing to think that even when we've known the Lord for years on end,even though he's so deeply embedded in our lives, we can still hunger and thirst for Him with a depth that can't even be understood.

I'm grateful that I can be honest with the Lord.He knows my heart anyway, so why try to act like I can keep things from Him?When life comes at me fast and knocks me off my feet,I fall into God's hands and cry out to him with my whole heart.I'm just hungry right now.I want more of Jesus in my life.The paradox is that I'll never get enough.For all eternity,I'll never get enough...

Today is my parents' 30th wedding anniversary,by the way! Isn't that amazing?It seems rare in today's world and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't praise God for that blessing. I love you mom and dad...